I'm not entirely sure what I came here to write but I've had a jumble of thoughts in my head and figured I should just start....
Lately I've been wondering about this space a lot. This little family/lifestyle/baby/mommy/craft/DIY/green blog of mine that seems to make no sense to me lately. I can't quite decide why I write here or what I want out of it. Many times I have even thought of just completely deleting the whole thing. Usually when I think about people out there stealing images (like recently I read about from here and always have this in the back of my mind). Or maybe I should shut it down and start over somewhere fresh and get rid of the photos of D and just write what's important to me instead of been there-done that crafts and tutorials that you could find 100 other versions of flying around Pinterest.
We have a lot of very big life changes coming our way soon and I think I would like my own little space to hash it all out. Joblessness, job searching, finances, home selling, home buying, home renting?, moving, moving in with family?, traveling, adopting... and whatever else comes our way.
But then also I consider that all of our family members live hours away from us and maybe I should write for them, to give them a look into our lives that they would miss otherwise. And then I realize that most of them probably wouldn't read it anyway. When you can face time who needs to read a blog?
What will happen when Darwin or his friends google himself down the road and is brought to this page? I don't think I have written anything too embarrassing or personal necessarily but still...
At first I think I started blogging because who doesn't these days. With no real thought about what I was doing here except some sort of chronicle of our lives. We had just bought our first house and I was excited to track our progress. I also was newly pregnant and I think I was seeking some sort of community since we had just moved to a new place and knew practically no one. Not to mention the pregnancy was still secret to everyone but us and my doctor (do you know how hard of a secret that is to keep!?). So it was an anonymous space.
The community took a while but I found one and I really love following the small group of ladies in my "circle" around the web and that's really what keeps me using this space.
I decided already that monetizing the blog definitely wasn't for me. Feeling obligated to fill this space totally took away what I wanted this space for in the first place and had that feeling like it took time away from me instead of a place where I could spend time to write.
Writing has always been therapeutic for me. I wrote a small private blog to help me work though the transition when Steve returned from Iraq and all of the circumstances that come with such a change. I wrote a little bit back when I was going through some postpartum anxiety and it really helped pull me out of my cloud when talking to Steve wasn't enough. And now I'm processing a lot of feelings as we start to think about adding to our family through adoption and all that comes when a family begins that adventure...
Well, whatever I decide to do I feel like rambling about it here has helped clear my head and helped me sort out some thoughts.
If you read this blog, what do you come here for? Are you in my "circle" and come as my friend to see what I'm up to? Do you like to see how we're transforming the house? Do you like to learn about my craft projects? Are you interested in health and sustainability?
And if you do read this blog, thank you. Thank you for commenting and being a friend to me and this page. Especially while I go through this struggle and figure out what I'm doing. I have always been blessed to have lovely supporting people without the negativity that can so often come with internet anonymity.